Tuesday, July 12, 2011

I miss her, but does she miss me? Is it really worth it?

So almost a month ago, my first real girlfriend, who I was with for 13 months dumped me. Her reason for dumping me was that her feelings for me were starting to change and she just didn't feel as happy with me anymore and lately she was beginning to like her ex-bf who she JUST started talking to again. She also told me that for the past month, she was reclusive to break up with me because she didn't want to break up with me when she knew she had no good reason. About a little over a week after she dumped me, i tried talking to her but she exploaded on me and said I did things that i NEVER did. I'm not just saying that, because it really is true, and she told me she "realized" all of this AFTER she dumped me. The only thing she complained about that was true was that I analyzed some things she said, but she knows I do that as a self-defense mechanism because I get lied to so many times and I knew she lied to me about a lot of things so I wanted to mak sure she wasn't... After she said those horrible things to me, she told my best friend a few hours later that she really STILL loves me and wants to take me back someday but she doesn't know when, but recently, one of her friends (who's a gay guy and a good friend of mine too) told me that he doubts she'll ever take me back because he said she has not mentioned me AT ALL and he doubts she really feels that way and he doesn't think her and I will get another chance. The things is I'm so confused because another good friend of mine (who's the son of a therapist and knows what people are really feeling) told me that he thinks she said all those things because she's starting to suffer from her repressed past, because she was raped when she was 14 and she was used by the last guy she really liked, and he said he thinks she's trying to alienate(SP) me and someday she will realize it and come back to me... I'm sorry it ws so lengthy but I need help... Idk if I should move on now and not look back or keep in touch with her and see what happens... I'm afraid to stay friends with her but I'm also afraid of leaving her out of my life...

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